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Things Are Looking Slightly Up

Well, the election week from hell is over. I swear 2020 just wouldn’t end and every day drags on longer and longer. I cannot wait until 2021 comes around! Granted things could arguably get even worse in 2021 – Yellowstone could erupt and that’s basically goodbye humans we had a good run – but the future is not decided yet and no use worrying until the doomsday scenario’s here, eh? Trump did NOT get elected, no matter what he claims with zero evidence, and that is already a plus for 2021.

I’ve been putting off talking about my pregnancy. Well, that’s because I’m no longer pregnant. I had a miscarriage two weeks ago, and I’m still grappling with coming to terms with it. I’m doing alright coping – journaling, meditation, talking about it with as many people as I can including professionals – they all help. I will definitely dedicate an entry to it, just not yet, because I’m not done coping with it yet. I am getting there, however, and so I look forward to the day that this won’t bring me to tears immediately upon thinking. My doctor also decided we should take a good, long break mentally and physically before we try IVF again. So sometime next year – probably January – we’ll resume the treatments. Until then I just have to physically take care of myself and get my mind in order. I still consider this as a thing to look forward to, because like I said many, many times before, 2020 is a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad year, and we all are anxiously waiting for it to be over.

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Voting

Well, this blog entry is going up very late, but I had been going through some tough times and I…still am not ready to talk about it. Well, I will eventually, probably very soon, but not in this particular entry. Today (tonight, really, it’s like 7 pm) I just want to say: I voted in the election this year. It’s my first time voting, and I am pretty happy that at least I played a part in the upcoming craziness. Yikes!

Okay, so I’ve always been the non-political kind. Very meh about both parties, even though I’m firmly a Democrat, but sometimes some Republican candidates sit alright with me (McCain, for example, when he ran against Obama). It didn’t matter because, again, I didn’t vote, so nobody cared what I think. I also reside in a very very blue state, so once more, it didn’t matter that I didn’t vote.

Obviously everything went bonkers these past four years, and we now have some serious autocratic despotic shenanigans going on with declaring victories before all the votes are counted, throwing out perfectly legitimate votes, voter intimidation, and other ridiculous suppression tactics. Still, I wasn’t going to register because, again, neverwaver blue state, but I was talking to a girlfriend of mine (who also lives in a solid blue state), and she said, ‘you know, we’re here joking about moving to Canada and internment camps for Asians as future possibilities, maybe you should, you know, actually go vote?’ and I was like, wow, she’s right. She then said ‘what would you say if your future children ask you “mom, what happened during the 2020 election and what did you do during it?” You’re gonna tell them you didn’t do anything?’ and again I was like, wow, she’s super right. I am part of the political process, no matter how small, and I really should exercise such hard-won rights, especially when this year there are so many people getting their rights taken away. So yeah, my friend (who already voted) convinced me, and I went to register for the first time as a voter online.

My husband also voted for the first time. He registered before I did, because there were actually Props on the ballot that he wanted to vote for, so it’s not the presidential race he’s concerned with as much. He’s a Democrat now but if this were the 70s he’d be a Republican, you know, one of those fiscally conservative socially liberal moderate Republicans that no longer exist. We looked over the ballot together and researched everything on it, and dropped it off a couple of days ago at a dropbox. And btw it’s ridiculously easy to vote in my state. I registered (with driver’s license) online, they sent me a mail-in ballot, I filled it out and found a 24-hour drop-off box 5-min drive from my house, drove over and dropped it in, and that’s it. No contact (COVID’s still here yo!), no lines, no fuss, and there’s a handy tracking website that told me when ballot’s being mailed, processed, etc. I checked it today and it said my ballot’s been received and will be counted. The end. Man, democracy really should be this easy, and not whatever that’s going on in other contested states.

Anyway, I did my part and now we can all wait like ants on fire for the results tomorrow. Or the day after, or the day after that. This week is going to be brutal. I really hope things go smoothly and no one gets hurt more in the process. It’s been a significantly trying year as is.

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Ah That Virus Yeah?

Unless you’re in the camp of ‘it’s just a flu no biggie I’m not going to bother with any precautions,’ you probably are a little bit nervous about the worldwide coronavirus spread. I live in a very populous city with no doubt thousands of cases of coronavirus around – untested and under-reported, of course, considering this is the good old US of A and all. My homebody nature is kind of saving me here; I don’t go outside if I don’t have to, and being a writer recluse my routine now doesn’t significantly deviate from the non-pandemic times routine. But my husband has a regular job at an office, and yes, it’s one of those open-floor tech companies where you cram dozens of people per giant room, with a cafeteria where everyone goes to eat. I’ve been telling him to try to start work-from-home, because the company does have the capability just like Amazon and Microsoft, and he said his company is considering it. Nobody I know so far has gotten the virus, thank goodness. I really don’t want my family to be the first in our circle, you know?

But yes, I’m pretty nervous about it. So I’m glad that I confirmed with my doctor and so postponed my IVF treatments both for my body’s recovery and because of the emergent crisis in the States. They said things’ll probably peak around May. Well, I kind of wanted to get things going then, but depends on the global climate may have to delay it further. I’m not happy about that, but hey, I’m not happy about the stock prices and the crazy hoarding going on either (couldn’t buy toilet paper, paper towels, had to order my sanitary napkins online; it’s nuts), so might as well chalk it up to the Heavens (which this sort of is? All things considering?) and wait. And hope the US pick up on testing and stop being so incompetent and actually care about people’s lives rather than economic numbers as much, but that would be asking too much.