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Inauguration 2021

I got woken up by an earthquake of all things. Hello Cali amirite? It was a small one so no big deal. And also the garbage truck kept beeping right under my window, but, anyway, the point is that I got woken up at spanking 8:30 am and so, decided to just get up and have coffee instead of rollover and go back to sleep.

Because of that, I caught the inauguration almost live! Almost because I went back to the very beginning instead of just watch the live feed so I can see the whole thing, which started I think half an hour before I tuned in? I don’t remember. Anyway, never in my life have I watched an inauguration of the presidency, voluntarily, in full. The only other time where I partially watched it was when Obama was sworn in since it was so historic. But these four years have tempered me from completely meh about politics into someone who actually turned into most of Biden’s many speeches, mostly after he won, and paying attention to state and local politics too. (I still try to avoid Trump talking as much as I can, so I did not watch the debates, but I did hear people’s reaction to it and I don’t think I missed much.) I voted for the first time ever. I obsessively followed Georgia Senate race and subsequent runoff; I think Stacey Abrams is just goddamn amazing and am going to check out her book from the library (I ain’t made out of money lol). I’ve also never had the desire to read any books written by politicians before. Not even Obamas, although maybe I should read Michelle’s at some point now. What a legacy, huh? (Trump I mean.) I’ve never had the illusion that America’s the greatest nation on Earth or whatever bs people get fed in elementary school, but now all the political decisions have such huge impacts on everyone that I feel like I must be well informed in order to navigate my life for the future.

So I watched all the speeches, songs, poetry, and of course Harris and Biden getting sworn in. I was truly anxious that there’s going to be a terrorist attack or something, but thankfully, nothing happened. Probably because there’re literally 25000 troops at DC right now, and social media kind of blocked people from organizing. It was boring, and normal, and bureaucratic, and I’ve never felt more hopeful. Later I was browsing more news and saw a headline that said something like “White House Believes Climate Change Is Real Again” and I was just facepalming so hard. Can’t believe the bar is set just that low but we’re slowly, slowly starting to climb out of the hole. So yeah, hopeful is definitely the right word. A hopeful 2021 is what I’m looking forward to.

(I don’t dare think beyond that let’s just get past the next few months first eh?)

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Okay 2021

Well, I was going to take a deserved day off just chilling and playing video games and look what happened!

Had a call with my mom and had to translate nouns like “insurgents” and “certify” and “Congress” and “the central government building of the US” to her to describe what is currently happening. She’s working, you know, like most Americans on a Wednesday afternoon, so hasn’t been keeping up on the news. That was fun. She figured something’ll go down today but wasn’t expecting the results. I think people just underestimate a crowd if they want to be violent. A person is smart; people are dumb. And a mob can become friggin’ dangerous no matter what political affiliation they hold.

I also caught Biden’s speech and Trump’s video live during lunch. My impression of Biden was “you seem pretty mad and that’s good! Call on these people!” and then Trump came on and both me and my s.o. were like “WTF?????” by the end. It’s so stupid. This whole process is just goddamn stupid on all fronts. Except Stacey Abrams. She deserves a medal. They also just called Ossoff for Georgia. At least one thing went right and on time today.

Still better than 2020 so far.

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Hunkering Down – Again

I don’t know if you noticed, but Covid is rampaging right now through the US. In So Cal where I am, things are really coming to a head. Our ICU availability is now at only 10%, so our governor put a pretty restrictive shutdown in place. I mean, in theory, that is, because no cops are going to actually bust in people’s house to arrest them for partying. But the restaurants are only allowed takeouts, and all the barbershop and etc. are shut down. There’s an 100% mask mandate, but again, only works if cops enforce it. Gosh, Biden needs to be president already and start some stimulus talk going, because Trump certainly isn’t going to do it during the lame-duck period.

Our regional restriction starts tonight at 11:59 pm, so yesterday we went on our grocery run so we can have everything before people start hoarding things again (we’re not hoarders, we don’t buy pallets of toilet paper, but we do buy enough paper goods to last us 3-4 weeks). We went late last night instead of today to avoid the potential crowds. You know, my husband and I have both been pretty good with quarantining since March. I barely leave the house and he only leaves the house to go shopping for groceries. We wipe down all groceries with antibacterial wipes, keep hand sanitizer and wipes in the car, leave all packages alone for at least a day before opening, and wear masks almost every time we leave the house (almost because we take walks around our neighborhood for exercise, and if it’s late at night and few people are out we just keep our distance and don’t wear masks, although I’ve started wearing some anyway since it’s cold now and a mask keeps my face warm). We haven’t seen anybody except on zoom or when we had to go do medical check-ups at hospitals and IVF. So all in all the restriction doesn’t impact us that much, except we need to be extra careful to not get in a car accident, or fall, or have a heart attack, or many things that we can’t really control because if that happens, we won’t get care because the hospitals are overrun. It’s an extra layer of fear and worry, but I’m not going to let that impact me mentally because, realistically, there’s not much more I can do.

In other, slightly more cheery news, I’ve been fairly diligent at keeping up my work hours since December started. I know it’s only been 6 days, but it’s better than my track record before. So I guess that’s something.

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Things Are Looking Slightly Up

Well, the election week from hell is over. I swear 2020 just wouldn’t end and every day drags on longer and longer. I cannot wait until 2021 comes around! Granted things could arguably get even worse in 2021 – Yellowstone could erupt and that’s basically goodbye humans we had a good run – but the future is not decided yet and no use worrying until the doomsday scenario’s here, eh? Trump did NOT get elected, no matter what he claims with zero evidence, and that is already a plus for 2021.

I’ve been putting off talking about my pregnancy. Well, that’s because I’m no longer pregnant. I had a miscarriage two weeks ago, and I’m still grappling with coming to terms with it. I’m doing alright coping – journaling, meditation, talking about it with as many people as I can including professionals – they all help. I will definitely dedicate an entry to it, just not yet, because I’m not done coping with it yet. I am getting there, however, and so I look forward to the day that this won’t bring me to tears immediately upon thinking. My doctor also decided we should take a good, long break mentally and physically before we try IVF again. So sometime next year – probably January – we’ll resume the treatments. Until then I just have to physically take care of myself and get my mind in order. I still consider this as a thing to look forward to, because like I said many, many times before, 2020 is a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad year, and we all are anxiously waiting for it to be over.

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Voting

Well, this blog entry is going up very late, but I had been going through some tough times and I…still am not ready to talk about it. Well, I will eventually, probably very soon, but not in this particular entry. Today (tonight, really, it’s like 7 pm) I just want to say: I voted in the election this year. It’s my first time voting, and I am pretty happy that at least I played a part in the upcoming craziness. Yikes!

Okay, so I’ve always been the non-political kind. Very meh about both parties, even though I’m firmly a Democrat, but sometimes some Republican candidates sit alright with me (McCain, for example, when he ran against Obama). It didn’t matter because, again, I didn’t vote, so nobody cared what I think. I also reside in a very very blue state, so once more, it didn’t matter that I didn’t vote.

Obviously everything went bonkers these past four years, and we now have some serious autocratic despotic shenanigans going on with declaring victories before all the votes are counted, throwing out perfectly legitimate votes, voter intimidation, and other ridiculous suppression tactics. Still, I wasn’t going to register because, again, neverwaver blue state, but I was talking to a girlfriend of mine (who also lives in a solid blue state), and she said, ‘you know, we’re here joking about moving to Canada and internment camps for Asians as future possibilities, maybe you should, you know, actually go vote?’ and I was like, wow, she’s right. She then said ‘what would you say if your future children ask you “mom, what happened during the 2020 election and what did you do during it?” You’re gonna tell them you didn’t do anything?’ and again I was like, wow, she’s super right. I am part of the political process, no matter how small, and I really should exercise such hard-won rights, especially when this year there are so many people getting their rights taken away. So yeah, my friend (who already voted) convinced me, and I went to register for the first time as a voter online.

My husband also voted for the first time. He registered before I did, because there were actually Props on the ballot that he wanted to vote for, so it’s not the presidential race he’s concerned with as much. He’s a Democrat now but if this were the 70s he’d be a Republican, you know, one of those fiscally conservative socially liberal moderate Republicans that no longer exist. We looked over the ballot together and researched everything on it, and dropped it off a couple of days ago at a dropbox. And btw it’s ridiculously easy to vote in my state. I registered (with driver’s license) online, they sent me a mail-in ballot, I filled it out and found a 24-hour drop-off box 5-min drive from my house, drove over and dropped it in, and that’s it. No contact (COVID’s still here yo!), no lines, no fuss, and there’s a handy tracking website that told me when ballot’s being mailed, processed, etc. I checked it today and it said my ballot’s been received and will be counted. The end. Man, democracy really should be this easy, and not whatever that’s going on in other contested states.

Anyway, I did my part and now we can all wait like ants on fire for the results tomorrow. Or the day after, or the day after that. This week is going to be brutal. I really hope things go smoothly and no one gets hurt more in the process. It’s been a significantly trying year as is.

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Ah That Virus Yeah?

Unless you’re in the camp of ‘it’s just a flu no biggie I’m not going to bother with any precautions,’ you probably are a little bit nervous about the worldwide coronavirus spread. I live in a very populous city with no doubt thousands of cases of coronavirus around – untested and under-reported, of course, considering this is the good old US of A and all. My homebody nature is kind of saving me here; I don’t go outside if I don’t have to, and being a writer recluse my routine now doesn’t significantly deviate from the non-pandemic times routine. But my husband has a regular job at an office, and yes, it’s one of those open-floor tech companies where you cram dozens of people per giant room, with a cafeteria where everyone goes to eat. I’ve been telling him to try to start work-from-home, because the company does have the capability just like Amazon and Microsoft, and he said his company is considering it. Nobody I know so far has gotten the virus, thank goodness. I really don’t want my family to be the first in our circle, you know?

But yes, I’m pretty nervous about it. So I’m glad that I confirmed with my doctor and so postponed my IVF treatments both for my body’s recovery and because of the emergent crisis in the States. They said things’ll probably peak around May. Well, I kind of wanted to get things going then, but depends on the global climate may have to delay it further. I’m not happy about that, but hey, I’m not happy about the stock prices and the crazy hoarding going on either (couldn’t buy toilet paper, paper towels, had to order my sanitary napkins online; it’s nuts), so might as well chalk it up to the Heavens (which this sort of is? All things considering?) and wait. And hope the US pick up on testing and stop being so incompetent and actually care about people’s lives rather than economic numbers as much, but that would be asking too much.