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No NaNo November

For the first time in a long while, I am NOT doing NaNoWriMo this November. So much had happened in the past couple of months that I’m still slowly recovering emotionally, there’s no way I can try to focus on writing anything even semi-literate right now. I have been seeing my therapist, and he said that I had a major depressive episode due to outside sources (so it’s not just a general depressive state caused by my own mind, but actual events that had happened), and it looks like I’m clawing my way out of it, but it’ll take time. I suppose that’s good news. Anyway, I’m sure for the rest of the year my productivity will be crap on top of these past horrible two years. Pandemic really messes with people, huh?

As part of me slowly trying for normal, I’m going to blog here again. I’m sorry I was gone for so long, but really, it’s unavoidable, IMO. So much crappy things had happened that I would love to recount every horrible detail, because if I could do that without crying it means I’m getting over them. Well, maybe getting over is too harsh a word – more like moving past them slowly so I can go back to being a functional adult. And isn’t that all we want? Trying to be a functional adult? Nobody told me it’d be this hard when I was a kid. I don’t really miss my childhood, but I gotta say at least things had definitive goals and I had definitive steps to get there. Now? It’s all a haze.

(Off topic, but I’m not a big fan of WordPress’s new interface. What they had before was better. It was cleaner and the text less cramped and is there a way for me to make it so everything isn’t so compact? It’s not the text size’s problem but more about its spacing. Geez, gone for two months and even your blogging UI decides to change on you.)

Anyway, I’m not doing NaNo and it feels kind of weird. The community aspect had always been my favorite, and this year I’m just completely ignoring the whole thing. I won’t even have a temporary icon with the badge on it! It’s a small thing but that always made me very happy, like I’m part of something cool and greater (yeah only writers think NaNoWriMo is cool, right? I mean not even all of us – I’ve met folks in my MFA who thought the whole thing’s kind of absurd haha). I think ever since the site rebranding it’s less, I don’t know, distinct? In that you can basically do your own NaNo anytime with your own trackers and stuff. So does it really have to be in November? I could probably have a “make-up” NaNo in January if I want. I might do that.

I’m going to stop here. When I’m more up for it I will tell you what happened to me in the past few months. It’s not pretty, but it needs to be said, by me, so I can maybe count that as a way to cope and move past them.

Life

NaNo? What Gives?

Okay, I’m just going to gripe a little bit, but the new NaNoWriMo website? Um…not digging it.

I’m still excited for NaNo, just not their current internet execution, you know? Not to mention the server issues (which seemed to be solved for now, but who knows if it’ll hold when hundreds of thousands of people are trying to access it in November). I just checked out their new forum and it looked, well, basic as sin. Almost like raw codes – I assume they’re still setting up so it’s not going to look horrible, eventually, but seriously, this close to actual NaNo time? Not really a good impression. They should’ve tried to roll this out WAY before now, and by the time NaNo comes around the new website would’ve been in beta or whatever for six months and all the kinks would’ve been ironed out. Tsk tsk, sub-optimal time management, I reckon.

Well, it probably wouldn’t affect me too much, I think, since I’ll be out of the country for a good portion of it. I don’t remember if I talked about this in earlier entries but I’m going to France for a bit – sort of a business thing for my s.o.’s company, sort of vacation. Okay, it’s mostly just vacation, but there’ll be a lot of company people whom I’m friends with there, so it’ll be quite fun (barring Brexit, but, um, well, that’s a whole other issue.) I need to go buy winter-y clothes though, because I haven’t lived in consistent 50 degree weather for a few years now, and so lack a lot of sweaters and long-sleeved shirts that aren’t paper thin (the style in So Cal apparently is just layer three thin shirts instead of wearing one thick sweater for winter, not that we have winter, per se, but, yeah, not very practical for anywhere else with actual seasons.) Hopefully I can find some kind of thicker clothes on sale, though – I mean, it’s 86 degrees today. Which reminds me, when I go back home this holiday season I’m going to stock up on actual clothes, too.

Writing

NaNoWriMo Prep

Well, folks, it’s that time of year again! NaNoWriMo. Of course, it’s only the Prep Month because we’re not in November yet, but still no excuse to not get into the spirit, so to speak.

I don’t know what I should count myself as because I don’t think I’ve won a single year since I joined it like, many many years ago. It’s not the point for me, you know? Writing 50,000 words. The point of it is to just, well, hunker down and write, and usually when I do NaNo I was in school or had a day job and all those non-writerly thing, and November had always been a good time to write things on the side. But now I’m a writer by profession this is kind of pointless, in a way, because I can do every month as NaNo if I want to. (I won’t, because that’s insane, unless you’re James Patterson or Danielle Steel or something, but I theoretically could.) Yet I still get excited whenever this time roll around. Probably because of all the community spirit, of all the people trying to drum out word count, of the sheer fact that someone’s telling me “bad words don’t matter as long as they’re words” and “editing is for December.” It frees up the spirit, so to speak, and makes the story flow a bit easier if you just tell your inner editor to stfu.

So as to tradition, here’s the official banner to kick off the NaNo season. Cheers!