I am so excited! Well, I’ve been excited since yesterday – too happy to focus on work, even, which is bad but you know, I don’t really get excited about many things nowadays so let me have that, ok? Anyway, I’m excited because we’re planning a trip to Hawaii with my parents! I haven’t seen them in over a year, and I’ve been worried about them getting Covid this entire time until they got vaccinated. (Speaking of vaccinations, my husband and I are both fully vaccinated as of today so, yay!) My parents’ workplace (they work for the same company) gave them some extra time off because of the whole 2020 shenanigans, so they were like, hey, is there somewhere you guys would like to go together? We have vacation days we have to use by end of June. And so, we all decided – Hawaii!
I’ve been to Hawaii before with my s.o. and in-laws. It was one of the most relaxing time I’ve ever had! The ocean, the food, the scenery, the whole vibe is just awesome. My parents, on the other hand, have never been there. They consider that trip from where they live too strenuous and expensive, which is true. Well what better time to go than now? It’s crazy, though, because apparently the entire US is traveling so hotels are getting booked up left and right. Everyone’s all pent up (as the news program say, “unleashing pent-up demand”) and chomping at the bits to go somewhere, anywhere that’s not their house! We don’t have all the details worked out yet but we’ll get it settled soon. Personally, I’m more excited about spending vacation with my parents than the vacation itself, although Hawaii is very, very nice. I didn’t realize just how much I missed my parents and going outside haha. Never thought I’d say this as an extreme introvert. Just show you how traumatic the whole global pandemic thing is, right? None of us are immune.
Yeah I’m still too excited to do anything productive haha. Before I sign off here I just want to say take care of y’allselves, okay?
Hi guys. Today I want to celebrate a small thing called a daily routine. Or just routines in general. I never appreciated how much a set schedule meant until this past year when everything went sideways. A lot of the normal things I took for granted disappeared, and I didn’t realize how much that had actually impacted my psyche until my psyche was way out of sync. Whether it’s skincare, work schedule, or just something slotted to do over the weekend, the fact that I no longer have a routine to follow really mattered. To be truthful I’m still very much struggling to get myself back on track. With my city opening up and my s.o. getting back to steady work, my weekend plans slowly began to solidify once more. So there’s at least one thing that’s righting itself.
I have been noticing on my most productive days I tend to have just the right number of chores and work lined up so I keep myself motivated without overwhelming myself. However, to get that happening I usually need some planning, and if I slack off on that I literally don’t get anything done. It’s like my brain just shuts off after certain hours, and to overcome that I need to “train” it to not shut off, which requires time, practice, and a lot of patience. Sounds like establishing a new routine, huh? You have to do something at this time every single day, and eventually it’ll be an easy habit. Or so they say. In practice I climb on and fall off the wagon in a forever cycle. The best I can hope for is the number of days I’m on the wagon outnumber the ones off.
So I salute to the routine, because it’s probably going to be the one thing that for sure keeps me moving (the other is adamantly NOT check reddit until after all work is done). You need small wins interspersed with long hauls, otherwise you’d eventually wear out. Even if small wins mean “I did laundry today” or “I sent out an email”, they still count!
Yeah, so remember a while ago I said I’m doing a complete media blackout so I don’t spend time on social media? Especially reddit? Yeah I’ve basically kept up with that on my desktop, but I allowed myself to check reddit when I’m done with work or just relaxing at the end of the day. Well, today I broke the rule, because it’s Saturday and I’ve already gone shopping before noon (a rarity because I can’t get up in the mornings), so I figure I’d relax a bit after lunch before I start work. Uh-huh, guess what happened? I totally got depressed because all of reddit is just filled with negativity. All the posts about how women are always discriminated against and will never make more than men in STEM and business fields. How women writers are usually passed over for male writers when it came to traditional publishing. All the excuses that Asians aren’t discriminated against when in fact, we totally are discriminated against just nobody gave a single shit (media didn’t report on it, no one talked about it on social, etc.) until recently, after Asians folks have been spit on, stomped on, stabbed, murdered, and scapegoated by everyone starting at the very, very top.
Of course, these are reddit posts, filled with astroturfing and people venting and all in all, not exactly the most nuanced place to talk about issues. So yeah, if those statements seem a bit absolute well because on reddit it is. But as an Asian-American woman writer being constantly exposed to these posts it’s very, very depressing. Which is why I told myself to stop going on reddit before I work, because it NEVER puts me in the mood to work. It just makes me go “why bother you’re going to fail always because every aspect of yourself is a negative in this culture!” People say surround yourself with positivity. I never bought that, though, but I think it would do well if I stop surrounding myself with negativity, at least. I made this rule for myself for a reason, you know! Like, I know that breaking the rule is bad, but I did it anyway. It’s like an alcoholic knows alcohol is bad for them but they still are driven toward it. I don’t know why I’m driven toward things that hurt me. It’s better if I run the other way, yeah?
Okay, so apparently with the Moderna vaccine, there’re people who’ve had delayed allergic reactions about 8 days after the injection. Shortness of breath, hives, not life threatening but very concerning-looking symptoms. So guess who’s got it? No, not me; my husband did. Well, I had some delayed reactions too but it’s just a recurring sore arm 8 days after the first shot, and some nausea and a single case of bad diarrhea 8 days after the second shot. My husband, however, has developed hives all over his legs. His right thigh is super swollen, and he’s had shortness of breath a couple of days ago. Today is the 10th day after his second shot. Yeah, isn’t it kick ass to be the “less than 20 people out of millions” who’s had this happened to?
He’s alright. He’s no longer experiencing shortness of breath, and he said it’s just swollen but not too horrible like that time when he had the allergic reaction to Dramamine. That rash lasted weeks, and I was reading up and it said the Moderna reactions last an average of 5 days, but could be up to 21 days. I’ve seen pictures and his is not nearly as bad as those ones. So hopefully his will go away after a week. If it gets worse tomorrow maybe I’ll schedule an appointment with our doctor, but I doubt they’ll do anything because, well, it’s obviously Moderna’s fault, and the papers that studied those all said it’s going to go away on it’s own and is not life threatening so, might as well just wait and save the money.
(I’m perfectly fine now, btw, and will be fully vaccinated by tomorrow. Can’t wait.)
Well folks, I have now gotten my second dose of Moderna and am on my way to be fully vaccinated. Just in time too, because I heard on the news today that fully vaccinated people can stop wearing masks indoors and out with a few exceptions (travel, hospitals, etc.) I bet this is a way for the Biden admin to push people to get vaccinated. Of course those never-masker-Q-anon people will not listen anyway, but there are some vaccine-hesitant folks who want life back to normal, and dangling this carrot is a good way for that extra push. I ain’t mad about it; we need as many people getting fully vaccinated as possible. The stragglers are gonna straggle, but if they’re a low percentage then I guess they’ll just eat the cost (of getting very sick while vaccinated folks won’t) if it ever happens. Herd immunity protects everyone regardless, you know.
I didn’t have that many side effects after the second shot. My arm hurt, I had a full-body ache that was controlled with Advil, and also a pretty bad headache that was also controlled with Advil and lots, lots of water. I was also feeling tired the first day after so I spent most of that day in bed watching Youtube (which led me to discover a cute little builder called Before We Leave that I purchased as soon as it came out.) I got better later that night, and it was so weird how it happened. I was feeling pretty bad in the afternoon and just before dinner time suddenly my head cleared. It was like a switch had been flipped, and the pain just eased up and I suddenly felt less foggy. Since it was late I was still tired, so I went to bed early and the next day all that was left was a slight headache and a little bit of tiredness. Now I’m bouncing around like normal haha. Which is good, because my husband got his shot a couple of days after me and I had to take care of him. He was also feeling tired, but no body aches, except his lymph nodes have swelled up. That happened after the first shot, too, and they subsided after a week or so. Different immune system responses, eh?
Ah, you don’t understand how relieved and happy I am that things will go back to normal, mostly. I’m expecting to go into hospital in the future so masks aren’t a thing of the past yet. Plus, I’m Asian, and we wear masks during regular flu season so that’s probably what I’ll do anyway. On the day that my husband got the shot we went to get takeout for lunch, and I actually ate a Somi Somi taiyaki outside! Look, it’s been a long, long time since I ate something in a public setting, ok? It was warm and the ice cream flavors sounded so good (it was a hōjicha/Oreo mix with taro filling.) This felt like that first time I went out and got a takeout sea-salt coffee from an Asian bakery – I did not expect how emotional I got from drinking a coffee that someone else made for me, haha. That was a few months ago, and I can’t wait to resume life as businesses – the ones that survived, that is – reopen. I need a haircut very, very badly.
Here is this week’s. I’ve been looking through my records of writing FFs and it looks to be once every couple of months! Well, that’s not very good, is it? I need to make this more of a habit. (But probably not next week, as both I and my s.o. are getting our second shot of vaccine and probably will be sick for a few days each.)
“Mom, I don’t think that’s what they meant when they said we need to quarantine.”
“They just said we can’t leave the house,” Liza carefully pulled the trailer onto the highway. “Well, we ain’t leaving it, are we?”
“Look,” she turned to her teenage son in the passenger seat. “we planned this months ago. The money’s all paid, and I can’t start that job late just ’cause the gov’ment’s being slow.”
“It’s not safe!”
“It’s fine. We’ll stop by Nana’s on the way, and I promise I’ll wear a mask. Okay?”
“Okay,” he grumbled, clearly unappeased, but stopped arguing.
Today I’m going to talk about my love for public libraries. As a child who grew up poor but loved books, the public library was my sanctuary. My local one when I was growing up was not very big, neither was my school’s, but there was a branch that was literally a five-minute drive from my house (or 15-minute walk if I felt like walking alongside a local highway without sidewalks in ridiculously hot weather – the deep south was not fun). I volunteered at that library during summers and the experience actually gave me the inkling to become a librarian. (Alas, life has taken me down a different path, but I really do wonder what would happen had I stuck with that back then.) I went to college at a different state and the university’s library was awesome. I was definitely one of those weirdos who actually spent time in the library not for cram study but just for reading. They had a lot of Chinese literature and that was my only source of it in the States. What can I say? I love reading. Of anything. Everything. It’s just never not been a part of my life.
So imagine my great joy when I discovered that my local library (a wonderful system here in So Cal) carries digital magazines on Libby! I’ve always subscribed to random magazines, but there’s a limit on how many you can read at one time (and it got pricey). One day I decided to check out the magazine collection (I believe it was a recent addition, or they just started to advertise, because I don’t remember seeing it featured so prominently before), and behold, you could get so many current magazine for absolutely free! Unlimited checkout, the issues are always available (but I believe it’s the current issue only. Not sure how you’re supposed to get back issues), and there are so, so, so many choices. (They don’t have everything, such as literary magazines, but uh, those should be paid for so I agree with that decision.) I’ve always wanted to read Wired but never got around to buying a single issue to try. Well, fret no more, I can now do it for free. There’s also magazines I read religiously every month and I can probably stop all my subscriptions now, but I do feel like I want to support them, especially the smaller publishers, so I’m still debating on that.
So a great big kudos for resources in our local libraries. If you haven’t used your membership you really should give it a go. I believe it’s a great public good, and I’m so, so grateful for its existence, especially during these pandemic times.