Life

Good Mondays – Nice Weather

Let’s just appreciate a very mundane and small thing today – the weather. Today I’m grateful that the weather is nice. Of course, I live in So Cal, so the weather is always “nice” compared to a lot of places. But the cold front did not leave our area unscathed. It had been relatively cold (40s and 50s) and rained a whole lot. Rain here in the desert is not fun. It causes mudslides, so bad that an entire portion of the PCH has collapsed off the continent, and brings out the oil from the roads so it’s more dangerous to drive. Coupled with the plethora of sports cars with no traction and drivers who lose their collective minds when water falls from the sky, let’s just say whenever it rains your safest bet is just stay the hell home.

But finally, the sun has come out and we’re back in the usual “wintery” temperatures of 60s/50s. It means I can now exercise again. I’ve been putting on weight and it’s mostly because I’ve stopped my walks when it got cold. I would walk during the day, but I usually want to go with my husband (because he will never exercise unless I’m with him. It’s one of those things you just can’t change about a person no matter how hard you try), and he doesn’t feel comfortable walking during the day because there’re too many people outside doing the exact same thing. So we always walk at night, when there’re very few people and we don’t have to wear the heavy duty masks (I wear KN95s when I need to go somewhere surrounded by people, and they’re not the greatest when you try to exercise, so instead I wear cloth masks). However, if it’s rainy or too cold we skip it, and it has been that way for a good few weeks. But now that’s mostly over, I can pick my routine back up, and hopefully lose some weight and get back in shape before I try to attempt IVF again.

So a toast, to the sun, to warm weather, to the oncoming spring. I think we all deserve it after such a harsh three months.

Life

Jury Duty and Covid

My husband got summoned for jury duty. It was the reason why we didn’t vote for the longest time haha, so we won’t be on the list for it. Yes, I know it’s an American duty and I’m being bad and un-American and everything, but come on, don’t tell me people really want to go do jury duty, especially if their work is not accommodating. And yes, there’re laws saying your work can’t fire you if you’re stuck in a long case, but we all know how things on paper translates to real life – not very well if it doesn’t hurt corporations. I’ve heard of folks who had to go do jury duty for a year (like the case literally lasted all year), and then of course their work fired them! I’m not sure if they pursued legal actions. If they had no job you think they could afford a lawyer, though?

Also, there’s still the problem with Covid. Neither one of us are vaccinated yet, and being stuck in a room full of random others for a whole day? Uh, yeah, spreader event just waiting to happen. We’ve been so careful all this time only to be thwarted by stupid jury duty? Nuh-uh. So my husband’s going to try to defer it for three months. He’s allowed to at least once, I’m sure, and by the end of June I’m fairly certain at least one of us will be vaccinated. I hope. By then he can go – he’s not going to shirk his duties, but it’s just a safety precaution. I mean seriously what if he’s next to some anti-vaxxer who hates masks? Yes, the court mandates people to wear masks, but do you really think people will comply? They’ll just wear the mesh-like ones or just keep on taking it off and, yeah, no. Not safe at all.

Writing

Friday Fictioneers #3

Yes, another installment of this Friday Fictioneer thing. Great writing practice when you’re trying to get yourself back into writing again. So let’s go!

Photo Prompt:

© Roger Bultot

Moving Up

Ronda put the box down at the bottom of the apartment stairwell. It was done – she was finally moving out of this dump of a place and into that posh loft downtown. It’d add another 15 minutes to her commute, but she didn’t have to worry about double-locking her windows and keeping her gun within reach of her bed anymore. Her son could also go to a much better school. All it took was to wait for her boss to finally retire. It was time for younger folks to take up the mantle. It was now her time to shine.

Life · Work

Media Blackout

I’m posting super late because, well, I’ve been kind of super demotivated lately. Starting with the last week of February – I had that weird insomnia episode and everything just kind of went into a haze afterwards. I had zero motivation to do anything, which I’m not proud of. Finally, I got myself motivated enough yesterday since it was the first of the month – a great fresh start, right? Nope! I sat down with the full intention of doing my normal planning and bullet journaling and blogging, only to be sidetracked by a news article. And then it was off to the races! I spent a good hour just browsing news and get demotivated by all the shit that’s going on in the world, and then I got on reddit, and, yeah, it was just a bad spiral all the way down. My plan of doing any work went to nil. And the day was wasted, with me being super upset to boot.

Well, because of all that, I’ve decided this month I’m going to put myself on a media and social media blackout. I will be completely blocking click-baiting sites like cnn.com, and of course no access to reddit or twitter or other forum-like places. (I do not have an active facebook, so at least there’s that.) I, however, will allow myself to look at npr.org, because I found that I can read NPR articles and stop at 1 or 2 articles, because their headline is factual and non-sensationalist. Because of that, I can read a report, get the info, and then go back to work. If it was CNN I’d be continuously clicking titles and skimming the barebones article and then immediately move on to the next one. Their marketing and clickbaiting works! So I’m going to cut myself off from going to that website at all. Ditto for reddit and other social media sites. It’s one thing if there’s amusing content, it’s another that, 4 out of 5 times, I leave feeling stressed, anxious, and upset. And that impacts my creativity so much. (I also give leeway to covid vaccine news, but I go straight to my state’s dashboard for that, so no clicking anything there).

I successfully blocked myself from these distractions today, and lo and behold, I’m finally beginning to get myself back into work-mode. Still didn’t write anything creatively, but at least I’m blogging, and journaling, and doing something productive for my mental health. I’m hoping I’ll return to writing tomorrow. At least a little bit. I can fill my time not doomscrolling with reading or playing a video game. Speaking of reading, I really need something lighthearted and fun for this month. I would like to keep up the habit, too. Well, I guess that’s the next goal.